It’s has been 2 months after the break up. I am still feeling as lonely as ever.
I already know that you are cheating. I closed my eyes thinking, if you clear up the mess, I would pretend that nothing had happened.
But it had been going on when though I had made it clear to you to stop contacting that guy.
We have made our choice. In this new choice, we should be happy. Even if I’m not happy, I still cannot get your care and concern like before.
I just hope you can be happy.
如果或可是
你说的好 我在你心中很好
自始至终 不可能将我忘掉
你放开手 决定错过的瞬间
只是我不要
你说的好 把眼泪擦乾微笑
再好的人 也还是要有缘分
寂寞时候 我假装你只是出走
赌气不回来
不要给我如果或可是开头的句子
我们不是都做了选择
在新的选择里 我们应该快乐
因为不快乐 也换不回
你的心疼
你说的好 我在你心中很好
自始至终 不可能将我忘掉
你放开手 决定错过的瞬间
只是我不要
你说的好 把眼泪擦乾微笑
再好的人 也还是要有缘分
寂寞时候 我假装你只是出走
赌气不回来
不要给我如果或可是开头的句子
我们不是都做了选择
在新的选择里 我们应该快乐
因为不快乐 也换不回
你的心疼
有时候 黑夜会哭泣
有时候 快喘不过气
有时候 把我抱紧自己
假装是你 假装是你
不要给我如果或可是开头的句子
我们不是都做了选择
在新的选择里 我们应该快乐
因为不快乐 也换不回
不要给我如果或可是开头的句子
我们不是都做了选择
在新的选择里 我们应该快乐
因为不快乐 也换不回
因为不快乐 也换不回
你的心疼
This song speaks 90% of what I feel.
I thought you are the one since I met you. The way we know each other is so unique as if we are fated to be together. I still can remember that day at Outram MRT early in the morning.
That is only what I thought. But who can confirm.
I thought I can trust you. Who knows after our quarrel and I am sitting alone in the void deck for the whole night without money as I lost my wallet, you were getting fuck by your ex in your bedroom. I caught you red-handed, seeing both you and your ex naked sleeping together after sex. That scar will never heal. I can forgive but I can never forget that Christmas Day.
It was also that time I had realised that you had cheated many times before and after that.
Long distance relationship is hard. I thought our relationship will become stronger if we pull through the long distance. Frankly speaking, I got no idea whether you did cheat on me or not.
I thought you when you come back we can be better. But I caught you cheating again. You had promise me that it will not happen again. But guess what?
I caught you again. I was merely away for 10 days for a family trip and you cheated on me on the 2nd day when I was away. I asked whether you did or not and you lied.
I asked you 3 times and you lied yet again. It was my birthday night, and I have to find out what you have done behind my back.
I forgive you on the condition that you will not keep in touch with that guy again.
I flew to Indonesia hoping to keep you company since you are away for so long. Only to find that I am only a sex toy to satisfy your sexual desire and get no attention even during dinner. I give you the benefits of doubt that you are working.
The whole of next day I give you the benefit of doubt that you are working even though it is Saturday.
It was until I found out on Sunday that you have been constantly contacting the other person. Texting the other person is more important than me flying over to keep you company. Texting the other person is more important than what I have put in for 7.5 years.
You have made your choice.
I merely asking to take back what I should. I am not even calculating of that 1 year when you are not working and I am supporting you for that 1 year. I am not even calculating when we put our money together for investing and you ended up using the capital and profits to repay your loan.
You said I am blackmailing you. Aren’t you forgetting that you are the one holding the money and I got nothing.
I am telling you to return my investment under your name. I have put money in the other half as well and you are denying it.
Your action hurts me. Your words hurts me.
You said I want to take every single cent from you until you are broke. Since when I am doing that.
You said I am blackmailing you. Since when I am doing that when you are holding my money.
You said if money is so important to me then go ahead. But you will break all ties with me completely. I am messaging you to ask you out for dinner so things will not turn sour as it already is. Since you said that, then I will take my money and ended all ties. Don’t worry, I am not taking more money that will make you broke. I will take back my money. That’s all.
When I have money I spend on you when you have no money. When you have money you spend on yourself, cheated on me and ditch me. This is how I feel.
The scar on me and the pain that I had gone through is more than enough. I have enough lies from you. I want to get it over. I am in pain, unspeakable pain.
I thought I had get over it. But writing this prove that I have not. I know that I still love you. I tried to forgive you, but it will takes time. I know I will never forget what you have done. The damage is done. Things will never be the same.
I hate myself. Fuck you. Wake up from your dream and get over it.
I hope this will be the last emo post for you. I seriously hope. Pain, please go away.
